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Misery Business

January 4, 2008

Life just doesn’t seem to get better on me. First, I fail on my Algebra subject for the first time (fine, I’m guilty of this, like I said, I’m the one who brought it on myself anyway), I was perfectly fine with it, accepting it and letting my bitterness towards my ala French named professor go away. But fate or maybe God really wants to test my patience with life and decided to let me on a ’3 month due trial’. I got my final schedule for this trimester (my last for my freshman year at college) and I only realized it now how much it sucks. See, I could have changed my PE schedule to fit the Algebra schedule that seems more appropriate for me, but no, I didn’t changed it and went ahead (without thinking) and got the Algebra class & laboratory sessions at the college’s hotel which is like a million blocks away from the main building (according to me, see I’m a slow walker and I get tired easily). It gets worse, my first subject in the morning is from 7AM to 8AM then my Algebra follows at 810AM to 910AM, do you see what I’m talking about? I’m supposed to get to the other building in 10 minutes?! Even with riding the public sidecars around Taft Avenue may or may not do enough justice, besides it’s my only “transportation” to that damned building, I can’t walk my way to the hotel or else I’d fail again cause of too many lates. My laboratory session with the subject is every Tuesday, after PE class, and I hear that PE uniform is not allowed inside the hotel premises? What the fuck? Suree…. let me rush my ass in that hotel for the next 3 months, followed by doing a 5 minute change to casual clothes everytime PE’s done so I won’t get sent to the Disciplinarian Office when I’m on AKIC (the name of the hotel building). My health’s awfully poor that I’m not even allowed to do muscle exerting anymore, yes well I’ve been excused for the last 2 PE subject I’ve been these last 2 semesters, what more with chasing time in the hot sun?

Is it me or 2008 is just not my year? I repeat, not my year. I have thought of dropping PE or changing my PE schedule but I think it’s too late now to do so, I was too Blonde this morning not thinking of it while I was in front of the registrar. I felt dizzy and vomit-y this afternoon even when I woke up from my afternoon nap cause I kept thinking of the hassles I’ll be facing this semester. Too much thinking makes me sick and it’s definitely not healthy for me. Just imagine, your body’s breaking down and piece by piece your system’s eventually failing. I need to stop thinking or I will get sick and everything will only get worse.

If only I hadn’t failed in Algebra, if only, if only! I can’t live through life through ifs & maybes, I have to face them. I also thought of not taking this but then again I’ll be late in graduating and maybe I’ll fail (not on purpose) other subjects as well, I suppose its better that I clean my mess while its early. I’m not even on Soph year and here I am, crashing and burning. Yesterday while having my adjustment form signed I heard some people talking about having problems in repeating their art subjects, I started to fear for myself, what if I don’t make it? I’m artistically challenged, I don’t know how to manually draw shit. I can’t even master the pen tool (adobe photoshop), and I know we’ll be using that soon enough. People, I don’t even know how to use Illustrator, I only know how to use Photoshop. Shit, I’m really really on the brink of failure right now.

My last entry before I go back to school on Monday, I hope a miracle will happen again, cause for the first time something miraculous did happen to me two days ago. He should know my limitations so He should understand.. doesn’t He watch over us, after all?

Filed under: Health, Life, School

11 comments

Cherry Says:
January 4th, 2008 at 7:38 pm
It doesn’t sound like your year has started off so well, but, it can only get better..
Ayiene Says:
January 4th, 2008 at 10:49 pm
Kamusta ka na Ate? Magaling ka na? Sana you’re ok na.

Anyways, that is super wow. Grabe, ang layo ng tatahakin mo base on your description. And for 10 minutes? Anak ng tokwa. HAHA. Di bale, kaya mo yan, use your super powers.

Bawi ka na lang ngayon sa Algeb. Go!
ank8 Says:
January 5th, 2008 at 3:49 pm
anna kaya mo yan! :]

go anna go

thnk happpppppy thoughts nalang at the same time jujuness
vanessa Says:
January 5th, 2008 at 6:13 pm
weh, seems like you don’t have a very good start. stop stressing on the bad stuff, look at the good side! remember, when bad things happen, something better is yet to come. this is all part of God’s plan, just keep holding on to Him!
michelle Says:
January 5th, 2008 at 8:07 pm
explain everything to your PE teacher! i’m certain he’ll understand. kasi naman, mahirap nga ung palipat lipat ng building noh! i can imagine how frustrating and exhausting that is.. agh.

aw, you failed your algebra subject? hala hala. hope you could pull it up!

start palang naman ng 2008 eh, don’t worry, something good will surely happen naman.
for every bad happening, there is a corresponding good one.
Mia Says:
January 6th, 2008 at 5:01 am
Anna, it’s just the beginning of 2008 and you’re already saying that 2008 isn’t your year Soon time, you’d probably see the bigger picture. Good luck with your school stuff and take care always!
Cath Says:
January 6th, 2008 at 7:01 pm
You’re not alone, Anna! I failed Algebra when I was first year high school and it made me a little depressed. But it’s my fault anyway and it’s not really proper for me to blame others when the real thing is, it’s MY fault. But no, you shouldn’t think negatively. 2008 is just starting and in just few more days, weeks or months, everything will be fine. Tomorrow never stops anyway.

And maybe, He’s doing that to make you stronger. Oh ha, God’s a little tricky sometime but don’t frown, he has better plans for you. This may not be a good time for you, but it will be a good time someday (when will that someday come?). Jigokou Shoujou is getting on my nerves again (Ichimoku Ren is cute, hahaha!). God bless Anna. Everything will be fine.
joanna Says:
January 9th, 2008 at 7:19 pm
mag-explain ka na lang sis sa PE teacher mo para payagan kang umalis ng medyo maaga.. that way hindi mo na kailangan magmadali masyado.. im sure maiintindihan naman ng prof mo yun kung meron kang letter from the school doctor or something..

hope everything turns out okay po.. it’s just the beginning of the new year so don’t lose hope..
Char Says:
January 9th, 2008 at 8:15 pm
wag ka mag alala anna, ok naman ung classmates mo, di ba? kasama mo naman si mameh sa halos lahat ng subjs (exept for comsk2x). itake mo na lang yang algeb/bmath sa summer! mag susummer din naman ako e ng advance subject =D (sana payagan ako :pray: )

miss ko na kayo ni cess :[ wala na ung BERN JPAC moments natin… kaya na tatambak lahat ng kwentuhan natin during PHILOMA. hahahaha.
Charlene Says:
January 10th, 2008 at 12:53 am
2008 may have started not really well for you but just hang on, maybe there’s something great in store for you this year. Who knows? I don’t know. You don’t know. So we all should just wait. My 2007 didn’t start well too but in the long run, it became a great year for me.

My former blockmates have their algeb-x class on AKIC too only that it’s late in the afternoon. But they also need to be there in 10 minutes. So, good luck! And try to talk to your P.E. prof. Maybe he/she will be considerate about it.

I hear you about the art subjects. I’m really fearing it. I’m really not a good ‘drawer’. And like you, I don’t know how to use Illustrator. But I tried it once on the Multimedia Lab in SDA. It’s not bad but I need a lot of practice. Maybe that’s what we need: practice.

Just hang on and be optimistic. Every year is a rollercoaster ride and we all should deal with it. Good luck and God bless!

Btw, I think you’re my blockmate in Filip13. No, I know you are. Hehe.
anne Says:
January 11th, 2008 at 10:56 pm
di ka nag-iisa sis.. ako din mei bagsak! sa programming suj nga lang.. huhu!! (